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Let me vent about my painting instructor for a bit. There's a lot of things I like about her. However, today she gave me this look, like that look I remember getting from jocks in high-school, that misunderstood, worried/pity/this-girl-is-weird look. That's not something I expected in college, let alone a college art course. And from a girl who freakin' makes creepy dolls and then paints them for her artistic career. As if her art is the most sane, normal thing. Whatever.

Alright, the story. We had to paint 2 self portraits, then use both of them as a spring board for a 3rd painting, which should be better, more artistic, than the 2 self portraits. In other words, the last one is the most important. It had to incorporate parts of both the self portraits, but didn't have to be realistic, could use the background from your favorite painting, could be science fiction, anything, really. You're choice.
Anyways, we critiqued the self portraits on Friday, and we all decided that I would probably do a horror film type scene as my last painting. Alright, everyone was cool with that.
So what do I decide to do? Since I have a cocky smile on in one of my self portraits, I decided to make that one "evil" and make her holding a severed head of my other self portrait. I'd use the clothes from the girl from "The Audition", use a small creepy room with white tiling and no windows for the background, and have some standard horror movie blood on the walls. Okay, so I knew this might be a little over the top for the average person. I came semi came up with some other ideas, but none of them seemed to work as well as this one.
When my instructor talked to me about it today though, she acted like I was gonna go ape shit on Hamline on a killing spree or something. Or like she was battling whether she should report me to the authorities or something. She was speechless for a while, kept staring at me, being like, "Ok..." all scared looking. And then she was like, "Is this tongue and cheek or something?" I don't know! Who cares! I think she thinks I'm totally unstable and am a threat to myself or others or something. Ack. The whole thing just felt so high-school. I know she's not very happy about it and is "concerned". Like, omg :p.

Anyways, as of now, I'm going forward with the painting. It just made me feel really disgusting be to considered like that. Like this unstable, messed up girl. And you know, I don't think of myself like that. I consider myself fairly logical, and pretty dang stable. I get straight A's, I have a good relationship with my parents, I hate to see people suffer (well, in real life-in horror movies it's all good. :p), I love animals, I'm a freakin' RA for the past 3 years and frequently a teacher's pet...all these things seem to point to a fairly well put together individual. And I think almost all the people up at school that you'd talked to would say I was a stable, dependable person. And being treated like something else is just really infuriating. Hopefully it doesn't develop into anything bigger, like me getting reported to a counselor or something! :p

I mean, yes, painting myself holding my severed head is sort of weird, but there's a whole following of people that adore horror movies. I'm not that odd or unique for liking bloody, gory, horror things-there's a whole industry based on it. And yet in painting today I felt like the biggest freak walking around on the planet. Argh. I dunno man, do you think I went too far? :p

Ok, requested thumbnail images, rough work for it.

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My apologies?

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I'm taking 5 classes this semester (And 3 jobs, I know, what the hell is wrong with me?) Anyways, they're all art classes-only 3 of them studio, which is still a lot. So, there will be a lot of art being posted on here from me, but most of it might be pretty "boring" and if you added me to look at Gargoyles artwork like I've been doing lately, I do apologize. I highly doubt I'll be able to work Garg art into my assignments, especially since all my instructors here are devastated that I want to draw for graphic novels and think I'm wasting my time and talent on that dream.
So, I'll be super busy and probably won't be able to do much fan art, and hardly any digital playing like I have been with my new computer. Just updating ya'll...
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Hey all. I'm more in debt right now then I've ever been (trip to Europe, have to buy a new computer, just moved into my first apartment, etc.) So, as a result of that every art I've ever done is for sale. I currently have all of my prints priced (even early prints and ones that I've sketched over the print-those are generally cheaper) and some of my paintings etc. I have also priced.

On top of that, I'll re-print any of my prints at your request for $25. So, if you see anything on my deviantart page that you would like to have (and to pay for), let me know, and you'll have it.

Also, I've decorated my apartment with some of my artwork, and all of them have the selling price written next to them, so...come on down and take a look! :p

I'm also taking comissions of work, but cannont give a clear indication of when I'd be able to be finished with the request. If you get someone else to want the same print, it will cost $25, but if I can't make money off anyone else from it, it's $50 for a comissioned work.

I've also started working on my comic again, in hopes that I can finish it, and sell it. And just because I have a little bit of time over the summer and I was super inspired to work on comic art again after the Gargoyles convention. And I'm totally motivated to do real gallery art after my trip to Europe, too, but that's harder to accomplish...

Ok, talk to ya'll later.
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Look!

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I've finally got some new-ish stuff up. Just to let ya'll know. ;)
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Old Stuff.

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If you've been watching my page at all, I apologize for all the old art going up today. I was just going through the stuff I had saved on my computer and thought as long as it was here, I'd load it on.
In the future, I plan to take pictures of my current prints, to show the kind of stuff I've been doing lately.
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